The weather yesterday was wonderful- today seems like it’ll be a nice day, too. I am still frustrated with the project and my own lack of experience/expertise. Glen lent me a book about sockets which is helping me pin down the abstracted concept of networking, but it’s not especially helpful in the specific problem I’m encountering (I’m understanding network interface naming a bit more, though). Still trying to get a live feed of the drone camera.
We had a lecture about the interview process, and I realize that I don’t have a clear idea of where I’m going in life (really makes the “tell me about yourself” question hard). I do think I have a strong sense of self, but things like motivations and dreams feel a bit far reaching from where I currently stand. I could always make up a goal (like the lie I gave yesterday- become a gallery curator focusing on interactive art installations that use technology- I would never do that; curatorial work is hard and boring), but that seems like a good way to end up in a bad position in life. Like I said before, I act like I have a lot of time to direct my life, but that’s not quite true (it is true, but it also isn’t).
Afterwards, we went bowling. I learned that I’m fairly bad at it. I don’t think I’ll ever try again. Seeing the billiards tables reminded me of how much I miss playing pool with my friends.
Topic I’m currently thinking about: the time that it takes to put on eye make-up every day. Is it wasted time? I enjoy how my eyes look with eye shadow/eyeliner (obviously the reason I wear eye make-up), but is my vanity worth ten minutes of my life? A further complication- if I rush putting on eye make-up, the pigments/chemicals end up falling into my eyes by mid-day, making me cry. Ten minutes is the minimum amount of time needed. If I stopped wearing eye make-up, what would I do with my extra ten minutes of time? Sleeping for an extra ten minutes seems altogether useless. Maybe I would start eating breakfast.