Tough news; I didn’t finish my machine learning homework (only one more question left to solve, though!). I also realized that I have an additional final to work on next week. The work is never-ending; after research, I jump straight into homework. I just tell myself that everything will be over in a week.
I wore my Dillo Day hat (Dillo Day is Northwestern’s annual music festival) to mourn the fact that I couldn’t attend this year- Young the Giant played, too, so I was really kind of pissed to have missed it.
My CS partner has diligently been working on the memory allocation lab. I really haven’t, but somehow, when I pulled today, there were a lot of merge conflicts. Sometimes I hate Github. Anyways, I’m really proud of her hard work, but I know I should be working on this lab, too.
Today we received another HCI lecture. I took HCI this year, and it’s interesting to see the difference between Dr. Gilbert’s lectures and my professor’s. We also got a lecture about the future.
Before I left Northwestern, I explained my future worries to my favorite MFA student. He told me that if I was serious about being an artist, I should be open to any situation, but that I need to be intentional about pursuing art opportunities. I’m worried that I’m not willful enough to be an artist- the stability of computer science is really alluring. There’s such a strongly defined path in CS: study data structures, be able to answer these type of interview questions, get your bachelor’s and get an industry job. Art is nebulous and intimidating- there’s no real path, other than get an MFA (even that’s debatable). I feel like this internship extremely diverges from art, and I’m worried I’ll just fall into the already tread path simply because it exists.
People keep telling me to be interdisciplinary- that art and CS aren’t diametrically opposed, and that I should incorporate both into my future career. I don’t trust that advice: to me, it always reads as “become a programmer who does some design stuff- UX or UI,” never “be an artist who uses code” (which is what I am right now). I’m also worried that my indecision prevents me from accessing my full ability in either field.
I keep telling myself I have time, but that’s not quite true.